Perfection: Chased But Never Caught

Ha! I hesitated to write about this, but it will give you a hint as to why it took me so long to get here (and by here, I mean launching this site, my future projects, etc.). Much of my time is spent thinking…a lot. Many of these thoughts are somewhat productive (how can I pay off my student loans in two years?), but a lot of them are irrational (My home needs to look like it could be on HGTV before I throw a party…yeah, I know...). I’m an idealist, which is one of the reasons I strive for perfection.  I have a clear vision of how I believe things should be, but this is in obvious conflict with where things actually are or tend to be. There may not be anything wrong with idealism in and of itself, but my focus on it has kept me from doing things that I know I should do or would like to do. What if it’s not good enough? Am I doing enough? What will people think? This thinking has permeated many areas of my life, but it's really impacted my passions. As an artist and writer, it can be hard. There’s always going to be someone “better” or “worse” than. What I have to tell myself is that my gifts were given to me for a specific reason, and I shouldn't stop sharing them just because there are millions of others who can do what I do. There are things that only I can give to the world that everyone else cannot. I think that art and words can move people to action, and I believe mine have the power to help others evolve and continue to ask questions on this journey called life. 

I am enough…

I am brave…

I am changing…

Photo credit: Sha'Neal Jourdan