Protect Your Peace

They say that when you’re tired of being sick and tired, that’s when you’ll change. 

And man was I tired…

Anxiety and worry have always been a struggle for me. Order and making sure right decisions are made have always been important. When something doesn’t follow the sequence, things can get hectic, but I’m learning how to navigate that. I’ve lived a very black and white life, and grey wasn’t always on the color spectrum. 

But grey is all over the spectrum of life. Some of my anxiety is starting to diminish because of that realization. It’s in the grey where we’re really able to see what we’re made of. 

I won’t say it hit me all at once, but the realization came in waves. I started making decisions that would have a deeper and lasting impact on me. 

Cutting off people with opposing moral compasses and those who bring negativity into my life. 

Making better choices about my health. 

Staying off of social media for a period of time so that I refrain from comparing myself and losing focus of what’s important. 

All of these things have contributed to the ever increasing level of peace in my life. I’ve decided to take control of what I can, and I’ve tried to worry less about what I can’t. It’s all a process. 

Most recently, I realized that I truly don’t have to be plugged into everything all the time. I don’t have to know everything that’s going on in the world of social media. I don’t have to be invited to every event, and I don’t have to go to every one. I don’t have to be accepted by all. This is a big one. Needing everyone to like me on some level is something that has been hard for me to overcome. Fact: It’s actually fine if I’m not liked by everyone I encounter. 

So, I keep my peace by cutting away all of the things that make me worry. The time-sucks. The negativity. The information overload. 

And I sit and learn to be ok with the quiet.